I was planning on writing a big long thing before I left. But. Well, time snuck up on me. And here I am scrambling at the last minute to get my things packed.

I'm leaving tomorrow morning at 11:30 am. Then I'll take some classes, and in 3 weeks I'll be in the Knoxville area.
2 years seems like a long time. Though, thinking back, the 3rd starwars movie came out over 2 years ago, and it hardly feels like it.

2 Years ago I was in New York city on a grand vacation.
2010 will be here before I know it. So I'm really not so worried.

I'm going to miss all of you a lot though. I'll miss your amazing art work, and your hilarious, or helpful comments.
Take care. I hope to be able to talk to you all in a seemingly soon time span.

hopefully this account wont be shut down for being inactive for too long. :S

And this may seem really highschool. But this song conveys my thoughts about all of this.
Man, I'm going to roll my eyes when I get back and read this.



This is a start
that I know I´ll believe in
so I´m leavin´ everything behind
Keeping the parts
that I know I´ll be needing
and I breed to be a better kind
And I´m leavin´ everyone behind

This is the age
when my past should be gone
but it´s just stronger than the aims I have
Turning the pages
I used to hang on to
I was young and I have changed my mind
And I´m leaving everything behind

New beginning again
a bit closer
new beginning again
a little bit closer
New beginning again
a bit closer to the end

This is the time
it´s a delicate line
to the beginning of what´s yet to come
Lifetimes of changes
a strange generation
explanations never come in time
So I´m leavin´ everything behind


Starter by the Cardigans.

I got tagged by the very talented -NA:

RULES
1- Write again those rules.
2- Each person tagged have to write 8 things about herself/himself.
3- He/she has to write those things into her/him journal.
4- He/she will have to tag 8 more people at the end.
5- Go into their dA page and notice that you've tagged them.


FACTS
1. I really don't like like getting chain messages. But I'll play along if I feel obligated.
2. A few weeks after I was born I went under the knife for hernia.
3. I've wanted to write stories since I was 8 years old.
4. I really like the smell of new books and action figures smell pretty awesome too.
5. I am a huge Starwars nerd. I grew up with the original trilogy, and I think it has warped me.
6. For me, the beginning of winter smells like Starwars games. (see above post)
7. I am good at keeping secrets.
8. I like to talk people through their problems, even though I know nothing about their situation and probably don't have any useful advice. But it's a good feeling anyway.

I TAG:
[link] :[link] [link] [link] (FACT #9. Anyone else I tag will kill me.(Hmm, now do you get the thumb nails to work?))

Over the past week I've begun to notice some things about myself.
I laugh a lot. Not because I'm particularly happy, but because. . .well, I don't know.
Wednesday after work I went to buy some gloves or something, the cashier ran up the total as $2.02. I dug around my wallet for exact change and found two pennies. Then I let out a hearty "Ha-Ha!" as if I'd just humiliated my worst enemy, or maybe won a three-legged race.

I made some other discoveries, but I don't even know how I begin to explain them. They kept me up at night though.

Last night I had a dream where I kept getting W2 forms in the mail.

Most were for things that aren't even jobs. Like Photoshop. It wasn't even from Adobe. It just said Photoshop on it :\

I may be over estimating myself.

I work in a few hours. But because my mind is messed up I couldn't get more than 3 hours of sleep tonight.

Basically, I've been staying up till roughly 7:00 am every day this week. What can I say, I've been busy. Time has been going by so fast. It hardly felt like a day from Christmas to New Years. And here we are already on the 4th.

It's been strange, New Years wasn't at all how I imagined it. I never went with of my New Years options. I went to my brother-in-law parents house and watched the Incredibles, then I went home and recovered from the eggnog I couldn't resist drinking. Then it was off to Gary's dad's house. Where we watched the ball drop. Then we after eating some pizza rolls we went to Dixon's and we visited about nothing in particular until around 3am. He then went to sleep and we all parted ways.

When I got home I tired to think about the now past year. And just all of the changes my life has gone through. But I really couldn't hold any interest, it was to soon to think of it all as 'last year.' Tonight it struck me when I was trying to sleep, and inevitable kept me awake. Just all of the past and happily forgotten drama kept coming to mind. Then the good but aching memories came, topped neatly with a layer of just the sentimental.

I keep reassuring myself that life moves forward, and that things will always be changing. I take comfort in that. But I regret the things I've been too occupied to pay attention towards, and they pass by and I miss them. My oldest nephew just turned 10 for example. To think that I was 10 when he was born, and now a decade later I'm wondering where the time has gone.

My friend explained that when we are young it takes longer for us to process what is going on around us. As we get older and older we learn how things work, and how to cope with situations. Time becomes a blur because we can quickly process all of that data from experience. When something life changing happens, or special and time seems to slow, it's just our minds categorizing what to do with the data. It makes me wonder what time really is. If we were born knowing everything, would our lives feel like just seconds? It suddenly makes the wish for unlimited knowledge seem futile as you wouldn't be capable of having the time to enjoy it.

Well, I kind of went on a tangent there. Sorry about that. I hope you are all doing well